Monthly Inspo

The first rate up box for the MaM event started last night and 1) I really like the card and 2) he came home!!!!


Yume is suuuuuch a cute brat and I'm glad here's gonna support me in my quest for Madara~
Also, he crashed my phone XD like literally in the middle of the scout my phone completely froze up but wouldn't shut off, so the scout music was just playing while I was desperately trying to get my phone to turn off. Thanks, Yume.

I ended up really liking the most recent JP event, tour aspect and all, though I do need to sit down and read the last little bit of the story. I'd been more meh about the Megastream arc this year - especially the first chunk of it - but omg it picked up in the last few parts!!!! And I'm not just saying that because Raika was a 5* in one...promise! I know that enstars stopped showing the authors of stories anymore, but the final Megastream story really feels like an Akira story. It gripped me in a way that others don't and just...idk man, it just had the vibes. Liz and I talked about it and we said way smarter things but my brain is currently like PPPZZZZZZTTTTT so idk what to say now.

OH BUT WAIT THERE WAS MORE I LIKED!!!! Instead of each stop on the tour being 4 assorted song with only the last song being related to a character from the tour (usually), each stop was a specific unit. And then the second half of the tour includes cover and/or fusion songs in each stop. It just really felt like it pulled the gameplay aspect of enstars into the story itself, and I really loved it. Also I like being prepared in advance, so knowing what units were coming up was nice.


AAAAAAAAAAAAND!!!!!! The second MaM stop had two Double Face songs, so you know I was crashing out (with joy, and also because my phone crashed twice during it)
So, overall the tour was really good!!!! Which is not something I usually say, since I usually find them grueling :T But this one was fun!!!! My only major complaints are:

1. No MV outfits- not even for the gacha cards. I didn't end up scouting on the rate up box, because what's the point if even the 5 stars don't come with a dress up option?
2. BRIGHTEST STARS!! didn't need another version. like. okay, this is personal bias, but LIMIT BREAK DREAMERS is the best anniversary song and I knew the 10th anniversary one probably wouldn't top it, so maybe I'm just salty that it didn't get another fancy version. Also, I'm still haunted by having to play BRIGHTEST STARS!! repeatedly last April, so this was like a horrible flashback D:

Like I said, I really liked it!!! I feel like these complaints aren't even that major, but because I did like it so much, I'm more able to critique it in ways that aren't just "idk man it sucked?"

MaM event preview + other scout preview are tonight and I'm like....beside myself ngl, I'm not sure how I'm gonna make it XD I'm having a combination of excitement + anxiety, which is really fun. I just love that my mental illness makes me anxious about...being excited for a thing I'm gonna like???? Like, what? That doesn't even make sense!!! I just wanna enjoy myself ;w; I'm also nervous because like........most of the fanthanx have been really good with fantastic songs, but what if I don't like this one? What if one of my favorite characters ends up having something shitty? Even trying to remind myself that the rest have been good only stresses me out more, cuz I get reminded of my high expectations, and it starts the cycle again.

Unrelated, I should probably get back into therapy. This isn't even a situation where I should step away from enstars because it's causing undue stress; I'd be like this about anything I tried to enjoy right now. Why? Who knows!!!!! Like I sorta know why, but also that isn't enough to stop me from completely locking up when I try to have a nice time.

Speaking of things that upset me for no reason other than ~mental illness~, there are some changes coming to scouting in JP. They're shifting some of the percentages around slightly and also...scout coins are now gonna be universal, instead of tied to just the box you got them from. Of course, this kicks in after this event's scouts, so like...I'm only slightly salty that I'm not gonna get to benefit from it after scouting a ton for rate up for MaM. The news also dropped after I'd been up for 30+ hours straight, which made me take something that honestly sounds quite good badly, for ????? reasons. From what it sounds like, you'll be able to save up the scout coins and use them whenever, so in theory I could start saving them in preparation for the next time one of my faves has a scout box, just as back up if I don't get them from scouting for them.

....it does sound kinda too good to be true, so I'm waiting to see how it works when it rolls out. But if it really does end up working out like that, I might be able to max Madara's next gacha card without spend nearly as much as I did on Kohaku's XD

( other enstars accomplishments )

I've had other stuff going on, but I've been rambling long enough and I think I can finally go sort out the website stuff I've been dealing with all week...just one thing after another, you know?